Last year, I wrote about feeling like a poser because I was still in college.
Today?
Well, I’m still in college but I no longer feel like a poser. I’ve accepted that my life is on a completely different path than most of my peers.
Last summer, shortly after writing my guest post, I lost my job. I was officially lost.
I had been working since I was 16. I didn’t know what to do with myself. So I took that leap I talked about. Instead of going back to a job that made me miserable, I decided to take my life by the horns and make my side-hustle a full-time job.
Sounds impressive, doesn’t it?
Because it would be impressive if it actually worked that way.
Yes, I decided to go after a job doing what I loved, but not before I sunk into a great depression.
My couch and I became best friends & mortal enemies.
I threw myself into the networking scene in D.C. Wherever there was an opportunity to run into people that might help me get a job, I went. I grew my network. I made great friends.
I had a falling out with a couple of great friends that threw me back into the black hole.
I felt empowered. I started to make plans, establish my brand. I was going to finally do what made me happy.
I got scared. I drove my boyfriend crazy. I started looking at admin jobs because oh-my-god-I-needed-a-job.
I began blogging more. People recognized my name. I got great recommendations.
I sent out my resume to tons of jobs day after day and all I got back was radio silence.
See the pattern? I don’t know if this was a QLC or just a Crisis.
Fast-forward to today: I’m engaged (I can’t believe he didn’t run away from me and my neurotic tendencies). I’m working as an intern at a fantastic PR firm (even though I’m the oldest intern here and feel out of place). I have an amazing summer planned away from my couch to make up for last summer (though I’m not sure how I’m going to afford it all).
I’m moving forward, instead of running in place.
I’ve officially cured my “Should’ve-Would’ve-Could’ve” syndrome.
I have options and I’m making sure I make the most of them.
I think I’m past my QLC.
I’m just trying to survive the Crisis mode – but then again, that’s just life.
Berrak is a 20-something Social Media enthusiast in love with writing, living in D.C. & connecting with others. You can find her blogging all about her personal life on her blog, or just all over Twitter at any given moment.
If you are interested in contributing to the Quarterlife Crisis series feel free to contact me.
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